The Choice is Made

I feel so empty. I want to go to scouts. But, it appears to me that I'm NOT there.

WHAT AM I DOING HERE??!!

Here I am. Chilling out at my cousin's house. I recall back.

Mum asked me:'Choose. Choose which one you want to go. To scouts or to your cousins house. Family or school activities.'

From that moment, I knew I was trapped. I had no choice but to choose family.

It was horrible.

CHOOSING...

*sigh*

Don't get my wrong. I love my family. My cousins too. But...

Scouts is... is... is... is my...

*sigh*

I don't know how to describe scouts.

I like it. But they don't treat me good. I do have friends. And I'm not nerdy. Well, at least I think I'm not. And... Well, sometimes, I just feel like I sometimes don't belong. Sometimes, I could walk into the den. And no one to greet me. No one to chat to me.

*sigh*

Life's hard...

Damnit!!!!!!!

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!