Everything Is A Blur

I didn't want this post to be rant-y and disorganised but I guess that's how Noel rolls.

If you are observant or is my undying fan, you would've noticed that I have updated the photos below my blog, which includes all the people that make me smile (I didn't include my family there not because my friends are more important than my family, but to protect my family's privacy). Also, I've added tabs to my blog! Of course, it's 'under construction' which basically means I can only doodle in it after SPM.

ASS PEE YAM 

You're probably wondering why I'm blogging. Well, it's currently the Raya Holidays. Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends, by the way. I hope you guys forgive me if I have insulted you all in any way. The cute thing about this year is that we have one week Raya Hols + August Hols. Usually they just mash everything up, but not sure why this year they made it a two-week holiday. So we're halfway through our holidays and I managed to nab the laptop.

I tweeted: 'Give me something to blog about.' (I know. I'm not supposed to be on Twitter, but it's just we're in the holidays and I needed to socialize a bit.) And surprisingly, people responded! Check it out:

I know right. My editing skills suck. I'm still learning though.

Anywaysssss. They gave some lovely ideas. Too bad I'm not in the mood to write any. But I did write them down on a sticky note! And I swear, after my Trials I WILL WRITE THEM (on a piece of paper first, then if I have time to nab the laptop, I'll type it out on my blog, kay? So sorry!)

Alright. As I was saying, I'm having my holidays now. And I'm wasting wasting wasting time.

Behold: My Brain. Yeah, I stole borrowed the brain picture and didn't bother to cover up the watermark.

I don't know what's going on inside also.

Time is just passing real quick. Suddenly I'm gonna start driving, suddenly I'm gonna sit for SPM, suddenly I'm gonna end my High School days, suddenly I'm gonna go to college, suddenly I'm gonna forget my friends.

Suddenly suddenly suddenly.

I'm terrified. 

Of everything. 

I don't know if I can handle life.

Mum says don't stress myself out too much. But if I don't stress myself, how am I going to push myself? All I did in these holidays is procrastinate procrastinate procrastinate.

So many events that I missed out/am going to miss out.

Sports Day. Canteen Day. And I'm gonna miss Graduation Night too. Whopeeeee. Nobody has the rights to change the date unless you're the Principal. I mean it's just stupid. Who organizes an event 2 days before Christmas? Christmas isn't just some Santa Claus event with presents all around. It's CHRISTMAS. It's Jesus' birthday. We're supposed to spend it with family. Of course, I won't be around. I'll be at Thailand or at Kedah, with my family. See? No one can do a thing. Oh, it's so sad that I can't come. It's not the same without me. Poppycock. Help me persuade the committee then. Change the date. Make it earlier. Of course, when this idea is suggested, everyone just smiles and wishes me a happy holiday. Delightful. I'll be leaving the school on the last day of SPM. Pat my buttocks and just walk away without any celebration or memorandum. Fun.

FLUSTERED.

I'm not getting any skinnier. I'm never gonna be skinny.

Great. Add Maths. I'm starting to understand you. Try to understand me too. I don't have much time with you left.

BOJIO BOJIO BOJIO BOJIO BOJIO 

JIO LIAO ALSO CANNOT COME LAH

I wrote my worst English essay with a dystopian setting and Unicorns. *flashes rainbows* Idiot. I didn't have enough time and the ending was crap. Surprisingly I have confidence for my BM essay, teacher cannot accuse me of having no 'original ideas' anymore. And my Chinese essay... Fingers crossed. 

Noel Work Hard. Noel Work Hard. Noel Work Hard. 

Chant it like a spell, maybe it'll come true. 

Mum wants me to wake up at 8am later to swim. I cannot slim down. I need to slim down. How to slim down. I eat so less already. She'll let me drive if I wake up early. Okay. We'll see about that. 

WORK HARD. 

This is a weird post. Maybe I shouldn't have updated at all. 

Blur Angel