Funny how that rhymes.
I have not written a word for my stories since last year (I'm not making a last year joke, since really early last year).
Why, you ask me? Hmm. I would say it was because of PMR. Cause I was focusing too much. Well, that's true. And... Laziness? Yeah. Laziness. I can't blame lack of inspiration, cause inspiration is flying past my head everyday, I just don't have the brains to nab it.
Well, I'm Form 4 now, and it seems to me that I have less time than ever. Not because I'm studying or anything. Its probably because I've been chosen to be someone important in camps and stuff (I'm trying to put this in a way that would not make me sound bragging, but I guess there's no other way to put it. :P)
I'm... Forced (?) to think of activities for camp. Okay, I'll dedicate a post for this particular matter soon, when I have the mood to blog. Enough of this crap.
I guess, I just needed to scream it out here a little bit.
I've been having constant headaches, and I feel like I'm suffocating. I don't know why. I really don't.
I honestly want to write stories, but I can't seem to get the plots and stuff right. :[ Its so sad. I feel like giving up on myself.
Story writing isn't like blogging. In story writing, you have to plot, and plan something exciting in your book. You have to be cunning. Just having good English isn't good enough. You have to think outside the box, you have to think one step ahead, like playing chess (which I always lose)... So, conclusion? I'm an Epic Fail when it comes to story writing.
Even my poems and rhymes aren't good enough. They lack depth. They lack meaning. They're too straight forward and not subtle enough. I want to be like... Well, every other famous poet in the world, but I don't get the chance to study their work. Our literature lessons in English are just too... Easy! I mean, they aren't advanced enough. I want to learn Romeo & Juliet by Shakespeare, but all I get is some poem from Macebth. *rolls eyes* They should put some of us in more advanced English classes. And we study these simple, simple uncomplicated stories. *sigh*
I guess I'm kinda done ranting. I don't even wanna I start on my piano.
Song-writing? Epic fail.
DON'T TAKE ME AWAY, STRESS
Stressed Out Angel
Dont give up on yourself :)
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