I'm not gonna continue blogging anymore. I don't see the point. Nobody appreciates what I write anyway.

Peace out.

Finally.

Goodbye.

No Ideas For a Cool Title Therefore I Will Write This Long Sentence Here at This Empty Bar. Hah.

Hello my dear Humans! :) I'm baaaaaaaack! I just finished my March Test today! *pops confetti*

Not much reason to celebrate, actually. I probably did badly in my tests. I hope I don't fail my Add Maths again. Ugh. I'm sick of failing. I tried so hard this time, but I don't understand why  I just can't seem to do well every time! So so, frustrating.

Oh well. What to do? Work harder.

So, I just wanted to tweak my blog template a little bit. It looks weird, I know. But I don't have the patience and time to make a pretty template for my blog. *sigh* Maybe next time.

I forgot what I wanted to blog about. See? Such a fail.

Well, I guess, after this test, everything will go topsy turvy now.

Tomorrow is our school's Cross Country Run. The 'country' we're crossing being the area around my school. Guys are running around 7km and girls 3.5km. This will be my first year ever participating in a cross country run. And honestly? I'm freaked out.

Obviously, I'm not an athlete. All my friends are. Well, Joyanne isn't. To quote her: 'Not my scene.' And Hui Ying. But Hui Ying does ballet, so it isn't really fair. The rest of them are athletes. They represent the school in track and field. Which makes me feel... Fat. And sad. More to fat, honestly.

I don't know if I should run tomorrow. I mean, I said I would. And I will go there and run. But then should I run run? Should I give it my all? Or should I just walk all the way? It would be super awkward if I did run. You would see a bumbling female homo sapien gasping for air, cheeks red. It would be so ugly and embarrassing. All my other athlete friends would be flying in the front, effortless. And me? Behind. Well, technically not behind. The Behind would be where those students who are not giving a sh*t about the purpose of this run. I would be trapped in the awkward middle.

Trying hard, but not good enough.

It's always like that.

Well, next week is English Week. And as the ambassador for Stuff@School (more on that sometime in the future), I have to promote Stuff@School, at The Star to push it to higher levels in my school. It's next Monday and I haven't thought of how to present it yet. I was thinking something interactive and lively. Oh gosh. I don't know. And of course the whole of ELS is performing. Which... I will be playing guitar. And the rest of the society will be singing.

I hope it goes well.

Hmm. Camps. Next weekend is Alpha Course. It's a camp at church. And I am supposed to find songs to sing there? I don't know I don't know I don't know.

Suddenly realizing how rusty my guitar skills are. *sigh*

SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM

Obsessed with Coldplay.

Oh, it's gonna rain. It's gonna be slippery tomorrow. Hmm.

Hey, Arvie, I miss you! :) I don't know what happened to my blogger. It has always been weird. But now that I have found you again, I'll stalk you. I'll stalk you good. You should teach me Tagalog so I can wow this Filipino scout I met at a Campfire xD

Kay, bye first. Might update my CNY post with more pictures.

Stay tuned! :)

VIVA ENGLISH!

Very Freaked Out Because She Blabbered So Much On This Blog Angel

Unbirthday Month

Hey March. You're gonna be awesome, I can feel it. 

 March Babies, GO AWAYYYYY! :P

Check out some photos I took in school on the 26th of Feb! :)

 Cam-wh*ring in the class cause we cool like that ;)

 PHOTOSHOOTING MADNESS, lol! With me directing ._.

 I don't know what Hui Ying was doing x)

 Yi Wen being EVILLLLL!

 I was trying to smize. Did it work? x)

 Yi Wen's sexy hair flip!

How can one not be happy when one gets free strawberry muffins straight from the oven? :D #PinkCheeked #ChubbyMonster

I took the above photos (except those with me posing, then that was Yi Wen). Bwahahahaha. I'm delirious.

I'll do a detailed post about Starstruck! 2013, Stuff@School, The Star sooooooooon! :)

LOL, March Test. Whut?

Peace Out! More school photos to come soon! :)

March Hare: "She doesn't know what an unbirthday is."

March Hare Angel

Don't Read This, Please.

Don't read this post. It's true. Don't.

I haven't done this in a while. Write a wordy post that actually means something instead of just pictures. I do enjoy sharing my pictures here, but the reason I have a blog is because I wanna write about growing up. Being a teen. Being me.

I realize that people read this blog. Surprisingly. And they actually enjoy doing so. Which I'm embarrassed and flattered.

Well, today was... Strange? There was this Sejarah (History) talk. And I don't know what happened. I sat beside Ash. And then they were talking about their Athletics stuff. They as in Shelvin, Dhipa, YiWen and the boys. I'm not an Athlete. I don't qualify. The rest of them has been Athletes since Form 1/2. Well, YiWen is new, but that doesn't count. They're a big big family. And it's fun.

So they were doing Athletic things - The name list and checking out the shirt. And they were laughing and having so much fun. I just sat at the side and stared. I told myself I wasn't going to say anything, cause I knew things would turn bad if I did. But I couldn't hold my stupid tongue back. They were actually in the process of choosing one 'group signature name' whatever that means for their Olahraga (Athletic) Gang. Then I practically shouted: 'Yalah, choose it. Neglect me lah. Leave me sitting here.' I'm pretty sure I said more than that, but I forgot the particular words.

Then they laughed, caused I've played this card many times, as a joke. I was joking then. I really was. But perhaps 20% of it is true. Perhaps even more.

And they shooed Kuha away from his seat and asked me to move inside. I refused. They asked me why. I just shook my head. I was comfortable where I was. I didn't wanna move. I'm so bloody big and clumsy that I would probably step on someone or fall down on something. But then Kuha did move behind me and joined the boys and the seat was just there, empty. I was debating wether to move my humungous arse when Ashley, looking dark, stood up and moved to the seat. So now, there is an empty seat next to me with Shelvin on my right.

Now I felt even more awkward. I refused. And retracted to my own thoughts. I felt awful. Truly awful.

You don't fit in. Whispers in my mind. Then this line got on loop and my mood slipped away.

I'm scared when I'm in a huge group of people. I think I may have lost the ability to socialize. I don't wanna be loud and crazy all the time. It's tiring.

I was actually thinking about a poem then. I failed. The most lines I could write was:

When inspiration dies,

All I wanna do is cry.

My poem went down the drain. And I felt like crap. I'm utterly useless. USELESS. I can't do anything. I have not achieved anything. Not a thing. 

You want me to list out all my achievements?

I can't. I don't have any. 

I feel empty. Useless. Unimportant. Annoying. Loud and bossy but empty on the inside. 

I don't know what this is. This could probably just be PMS or what. 

Whatever. It doesn't matter.

I feel odd. 

Good night. 

Weird Angel

2008 6B'ians Steamboat Gathering

We were in the same class once, but our friendship lasted so long.

I actually organized this event. Heheheh. Let me syok sendiri  a little bit, can? And we reached a record breaking: 41 people attending! 

2/2/13, a day to remember.

I don't wanna yap anymore. So enjoy this GIF I made and some photos! :D

Spot me! :D

 Words cannot describe this photo.

They were singing our primary school song. Seriously.  

Spazzed out.

I wanna write loads, but I'm lazy. So deal with it.

Miss them already! :')

Jealous ah? Go make your own gatherings! :D

Gathering Angel