Tuesday 30 March 2010

Deadline...

I HATE deadlines.

And there's one coming up for scouts.

I haven't finished my log.

ALL of them.

*sigh*

I've noticed that every time I blog about scouts I will sigh.

I'M SUCH A FAILURE!!!


Should I back out from scouts? Should I?

I DON'T WANT TO...

I don't want to give up...

I'm just simply NOT that kinda person.

There's a mesyuarat agung this Saturday. I wanna go.

And that is FINAL.

School After Kem Jati Diri

*sigh*
School after Kem Jati Diri....

Slightly boring...

Nothing special...

Some homework didn't finish... 

Some teachers pissed at me...

A typical day...

Tired...

Thigh muscles very S-O-R-E...

The juniors still very hyper from the camp...

HAHA!!!

Can't believe I got best camper for the whole Form 2... XP

Reliving the moment........

Ho Khoon Meng is standing at the stage. He has just announced the Form 1 best camper... Which was Hee Jian Xin... Slight surprise there... LOL

Then he is about to announce the best Form 2 camper...

My heart thudded just a little bit quickly...

When he asked:'Siapa fikir dia boleh dapat hadiah ini?' (Who thinks they can get this prize?)

Immediately, me and my bunch of crazy scouts friends raised up their hands!!! 

Then, he said something about being 'syok sendiri' ( being excited over something only oneself can get excited about [Ha! I googled this!!]) and I looked around. 

Dammit. 

I was the only one left raising my hand... 

Then, he said:'Tapi, biasanya, orang yang syok sendiri akan dapat hadiah...' (But usually, people who are being excited over something only oneself can get excited about win the prize...)

I was confused at first. My head was full of adrenaline.

He repeated it:'Tapi, biasanya, orang yang syok sendiri akan dapat hadiah...' 

The idea was starting to get into my head... But I couldn't believe it.

Then he repeated it once more and said:'Still don't understand ah?'

With that, I stood up with a whoop of joy and ran up the stage to claim my prize...

At the background, I could hear him introduce me and the distant noise of clapping as I posed in front of the camera...

Lol... That was what happened. 

I just wanted to brag... XP

Wednesday 24 March 2010

Emo

During exam, I was so freaking bored I decided to start off a story. It was very spontaneous as I was really, really bored. I had a hard time deciding whether to go with the Malaysian style or the British/American. Finally I chose British/American. But I know it's not really good. Cuz I've never experienced it before...  Its not finished yet so its continuos. Its an evil scheme to keep you hooked to my blog. Mwahahahahahaha!!!! Ok, here goes--

I took a deep breath and walked into the classroom holding only my pencil box. My eyes scanned the classroom, searching for a place to sit. Everyone was already at their places. I sighed inwardly and walked towards my usual seat- the corner. As I was walking to my seat, one of the jocks stretched out his legs casually and tripped me.

The whole class erupted in laughter as I scrambled up. Thank God I was wearing my skinny jeans. I quickly stood up and walked to my seat whilst hiding behind my thick black fringe, hoping no one noticed my pale face blushing.

I sat down as a wave of anger and frustration washed over my body. I hated those jocks. Thinking they're so cool, being the apple of the teacher's eye, making fun of me at every chance. Was I pissed?

Heck Yeah.

But I could do nothing. I'm just the Emo kid. The dark one. The loner. My duty at school? Shut up and be ignored. I sighed again.

The teacher walked into our classroom carrying a stack of papers, late as usual. We were going to have our monthly exam today, and our bags were all left outside in case we cheat or something.

Mr Finch was wearing a purple shirt with the most hideous yellow tie. It even had prints of kittens on it. Ugly.
'Class, we're going to have a test today.' Like that wasn't obvious enough.' hope you will discipline yourselves during this test.'

Finishing that, he threw the stack of papers down on the desk of the student in front of him and settled down at the teacher's desk holding a hardback book and said:'Start!'

The rustling of paper could be heard as everyone got started on their paper.

I couldn't be bothered to open my paper. My eyes scanned the room for something interesting.

The nerds at the front were giving great enthusiasm in their paper.

The 'Populars' - the jocks and the cheerleaders were patiently waiting for the nerds to hand in their paper so that they can copy it. That's why their grades are so good.

The 'Low' gang at the other corner of the room was too not bothered to open their paper. They were doodling over it, some applying makeup, styling their hair and a couple were even making out.

I rolled my eyes at them and started at my paper. History. Not my favorite subject. So I tried a little and gave up.

Who cares? No one cares about me.

Suddenly, someone sneezed. It was an extremely fake one.

The whole class erupted in giggles and all eyes turned to the class clown.

My heart thudded more quickly.

The teacher rolled his eyes, told us to shut up and get on with the test.

The class clown-- Vincent flashed his pearly whites at everyone and it lingered at me for quite some time.

I hided behind my fringe and my heart thudded faster and harder. Dammit. This always happens when he looks at me.  I blamed this mostly on my hormones. They were going slightly crazy...

But why does he have to be so damned cute??

His tanned skin was flawless. And so was his slightly muscular body. His warm hazel eyes were ringed with long eyelashes. His hair was slightly long and not too styled. He was the most beautiful boy I've ever seen. Every time I look at him, it takes my breath away.

I blushed slightly and turned my focus back to the stupid test. It was unbearable. I could feel his eyes boring through my fringe. I tilted my head more downward and tried to ignore him.

But, I couldn't resist a tiny peek.

He saw me looking up and flashed me a cheeky grin. My heart skipped a beat. Its a wonder I didn't get a heart attack right on the spot.

At this point. Mr Finch shut his book with a sharp snap and stood up. He announced:'Class, the test is finished. Please leave your paper on the desks and go collect your bags.'

With that, everyone stood up and walked outside for their bags. They were in a lively chatter about the test.

I could see Vincent sighed inwardly and stand up. The guy who was sitting next to him immediately started to talk to him. Vincent reluctantly moved his gaze off me.

I didn't bother to stand up. I just felt slightly disappointed. This was not the first time it happened. It was always like this. Just when he looked like he had the urge to talk to me, something always distracts him. I felt slightly pissed and slightly sad...

But, I'm not giving up. I won't give up until what I want to happen happens.

Friday 19 March 2010

The Choice is Made

I feel so empty. I want to go to scouts. But, it appears to me that I'm NOT there.

WHAT AM I DOING HERE??!!

Here I am. Chilling out at my cousin's house. I recall back.

Mum asked me:'Choose. Choose which one you want to go. To scouts or to your cousins house. Family or school activities.'

From that moment, I knew I was trapped. I had no choice but to choose family.

It was horrible.

CHOOSING...

*sigh*

Don't get my wrong. I love my family. My cousins too. But...

Scouts is... is... is... is my...

*sigh*

I don't know how to describe scouts.

I like it. But they don't treat me good. I do have friends. And I'm not nerdy. Well, at least I think I'm not. And... Well, sometimes, I just feel like I sometimes don't belong. Sometimes, I could walk into the den. And no one to greet me. No one to chat to me.

*sigh*

Life's hard...

Damnit!!!!!!!

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday 15 March 2010

My Results!!! Shock! HoRROR!!!

I'm unhappy. My results are crap. Shitty to bits. T.T

This is what I got:

Bahasa Malaysia (Malay)-- 74% T.T

Bahasa Inggeris (English)-- 95% only!!!!! Shitty!!! Though still the highest in class... But...

Bahasa Cina (Chinese)-- 67% OMG!! Thats the worst I've gotten so far... T.T

Mathematics-- 92% quite high but not enough!

Science-- 80% F*** I can't believe I got that low... Shit

Sejarah (History)-- 78% Thats considered quite high... for me... But parents unhappy widdit... T.T

Geografi (Geography)-- 79% Thats what I got, but teacher said he'll add one more mark to me if I finish all the corrections. Thats plain blackmail, I tell you.

Pendidikan Moral (Moral)-- 92% I'm happy with that cuz I didn't study at all. Mwahahahahaha!!!!

Kemahiran Hidup (Home Economics)-- 86% Highest in class!!! Mwahahahahaha!!! I even beat all the guys!!!!

But... I'm still not very satisfied with my grades... T.T

I should try harder!!!!

Thursday 4 March 2010

The Three Days of Exam

Today is the last day of exams. We had Kemahiran Hidup (Home Economics), Geography and Maths. Geo and Maths was so EASY. But Kemahiran Hidup was quite hard... Ok. Let's not linger on that memory. But I was really really bored. Throughout the whole day, some teacher separated me and S. T.T So BORING...

Yesterday was even more boring. S went for MSSD. Which is a sport thingy. Although short, she can run really fast. Anyway, there I was getting ass pain from the metal lab chair and getting bored with Sejarah (history), Moral and Chinese. Well, Chinese was okay because S didn't take Chinese. But Sejarah and Moral was torture. But the past is the past.

The day before yesterday, we had Bahasa Melayu (Malay), Bahasa Inggeris (English) and Science. Everything was quite easy and I had S by my side so that day went successfully...

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