Bliss

I am so blissed out from the glitter, sparks, lights, screams, music, dancing, swag, applause.

Malam Bakat-ed Angel

Lightning Post

Ho ho ho. This will be like lightning.

The most tragic problem I'm having now:

Malam Bakat is this Sunday!

Mid-year exams are here in 2 weeks!

On Malam Bakat:

I'm not nervous, at all. Probably because I've accepted defeat? Probably because our performance is boring? Prbably because my mum hates what I'm doing and says I am a lousy singer with no standards?

I'm not nervous, but Joyanne is. I don't want her to be, but she can't help being stressy.

The most disappointing part is that my MOTHER wants no part in our performance. She says its none of her business. So now, who's gonna do our make up? Who's gonna make sure I our outfits are stage-ready? Who's gonna be there to listen and smile? Dad is, she isn't (only the being there to watch part).

I don't think this year's Malam Bakat will be fun at all.

On Mid-Term Exams:

What the heck.

I'm obviously NOT prepared.

And no time to too, what with MB and all.

I just wish I wouldn't get crap results like last exam (25 in class and 61 in whole form)...

I have to get at least B- ses for everything.

Tally-Ho!

I'm feeling spiritless.

Sad Angel

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My Imagination is so dead, I cannot type a word.

I Need To Breathe

Hey babe, I got your texts. Thanks babe. I know you care. I really do. Love you too. 

My head's splitting in half. I can't think. I can barely breathe. I don't know what's wrong with me. I really don't. 

Hmm. Amusing thought, maybe I have a critical condition? Hmmm... Maybe I'll die. 

Have you ever thought about death? I have. 

I am curious. 

But not enough to  kill myself, idiot. 

I still have school tomorrow. What the HECK. Boring. 

Hope my head will be fine tomorrow. 

Hunger Games, got confiscated. 

:[

I need to breathe. 

Head-aching Angel

Easter is Beautiful

7/4/2012

Just enjoy the candlelight.

This is for the first time in my life I celebrated Easter. #NoKidding

The church was beautiful. Candles from thousands of Catholics, illuminating the church with it's flickering glow. It was so beautiful.

Hallelujah! The Lord Has Risen! Let us REJOICE!

The haunting melody plays in my mind. 

Easter isn't about Bunnies.

I'm happy.

Although hot.

But happy all the same.

Jesus Loving Angel

Pure Science Student

Hey Humans. I haven't seen all of you in a while, I don't know why, but my last post, my Camp Rock post, didn't pop out in the blogger feed. WTF. Its like there's something wrong with my blogger. Never mind, you can read it here <-- click! There's lots of epic photos in there. :]

Since my pathetic existence is just filled with uselessness, I shall tell you a little bit on what being a Pure Science Student feels like (through my eyes).

As I mentioned above, I am a Pure Science Student. I expected myself to be one, no surprises there, since there are only 4 choices as I step into upper forms:

• Arts Stream (Not Artistic and Creative enough)
• Accounts Stream (I hate Maths)
• Sub-Science (I don't wanna be an engineer)
• Pure Science (I'm not smart enough)

Naturally, I chose Pure Science, because I think, in my subconscious, I wanna be a scientist. Of course, this ambition was rooted down when I had no idea about the fields of science. I expected scientists mixed stuff around in beakers and *boom*. (Yes, I was that childish)

But now, I'm not really sure if I made the correct choice.

I mean, I wanna study Psychology, so obviously, I have to take Biology. And apparently, people think I'm 'smart', since I'm a so-called-Daisy-Class-Student. So I 'naturally' will go study Pure Science.

Well, I am currently going MAD with all the science subjects here.

I'm drowning. I seriously am.

Everyone in my class is one step ahead. They all have these amazing tuition centers, teachers and so on. Whereas, I? Am like, one-step behind everyone. I'm not kidding.

I could be sitting in class during one of the Science subjects or Add Maths, and have no idea whatsoever the teacher is talking about, while I see Phuah, Ashley or Dhipa nodding attentively. Whereas I? Would be struggling. But, I still put on a brave face. I don't want to let them know they've beaten me in early stages.

I feel exhausted. In having to fake everything. I feel fake. Unreal.

Honestly, if I told this dilemma I have to my parents, they would just say: 'Why don't you just change to art stream??' And tears of injustice would spring to my eyes, and I would fall silent. But inside, I would cry out, exasperated, but I can't freaking DRAW!


The rain is pouring outside. 


I'm flashing back.

We were all sitting in class. We are around 8 or 9, I think. Teacher asked: 'What is your ambition?'

My answer was, definitely: 'Writer! 作家！Penulis!'

It hasn't changed since.

So how am I supposed draft out ideas from ART, SCIENCE and ACCOUNTS??

Whatever.

In exchange for a spot of participation in Malam Bakat,  the Mother has wanted grades in exchange. Like barter.

Fine. Have it your way.

I'm annoyed because I typed out a bunch of stuff just now. And a freaking reload has erased everything.

I'm too short of time to retype.

Just leave me be.

为什么你越长越大越没有用？！

(Why are you getting more and more useless as you grow older?!)

Well, tell me when you find out, don't you. 

Dreams, left uncaught. 

Now, I have to act as if nothing had happened. 

Depressed Angel

Malam Bakat 2012 Auditions

Hey Humans! Waddup yow? Life is getting more and more interesting... :D I'll blog about the Malam Bakat Auditions which happened 3/4/12

So yes, I'm in Malam Bakat again. Some of you may be clueless on what I'm talking about. Well, this Malam Bakat event means Talent Night in English. Basically, students go and compete and show their talent up on stage. How could I miss out on that?? This event started last year and my band, The Black Roses took part in it. We were horrid. Honestly. The sound system crashed our performance. But, it was really fun.

My so-called-'band', is called The Black Roses. You can see us here. Being idiots. :P
2010 Majlis Perpisahan Pengawas
2011 Majlis Perpisahan Pengawas

I'll post some photos here  for ya'll to see :D

Rehearsals!

We weren't really doing anything. Just having a silly time xD

This is inexplainable :P

Aww yeah! :D

The day of our performance!

I look awesome! *perasan*

I love this picture! <3

Performance!

It was considerably okay. Nah, just kidding. It sucked like hell. My mike didn't work. :[ *sigh* Its okay. Its past already. 

I look insane onstage. 

Don't ask me why I'm wearing so much makeup. Just ask Ashley's mum. I think we have a different view on the word 'touch-up'

After the performance, we didn't win. :P But, ah well. 

I was just posing randomly. 

The Final Bow. 

Of course, we took crazy pictures too. But beware, my make-up is horrendous. I look like an evil witch. Seriously. I prefer the one I originally have, which my mum did on me but I still like myself makeupless. 

Err, yeah. That was 2011's Malam Bakat. It was pretty awesome. We had fun!

So, about this year's auditions... 

I couldn't believe Joyanne was late during the auditions! Grrr. The whole world was waiting for her RM7000 keyboard! And I was waiting for her. But she turned up, in the end. Said she was too sleepy.

Anyways, on the day, we were nervous and excited. Joyanne was nervous. I was more to excited. I'm always like that before I perform. Us being Prefects, we got to sneak and watch other people's performances. 

The Auditions were split into two days. The first one for Musical stuff and other stuff, whereas the second day is for dancing groups and crews. Too many people dance. 

There was one band, V7, which was AWESOME. Most of the band members were in another band, called Freedom last year. They were good. But this year, they were better. I'm so jealous. Cause I know how hard it is to make a band, practice a song, make it flawless and etc. They performed some Chinese Song. They sound good (probably because they got mentored by Nickson, Joyanne's ex-piano teacher). They have an awesome singer (Champion of the Chinese Singing Competition last year), and the electric guitarist has PEDALS. I hate you, Nicholas! 

There was another band (I forgot the name), they were... Not so good.  They were messy and disorganized. It made me wince to see their performance. They performed Pumped Up Kicks- Foster The People. I won't say they killed the song, but it was close. But, they had a violin! That was cool. Yeah. 

Umm... Lots of people sang, but they were okay. None of them really really stood out, so yeah.

After watching V7's audition, they were really bummed because Nicholas couldn't perform his solo, which was situated at the end of the song. We instantly decided we should change up our audition song, Price Tag- Jessie J feat. B.o.B. (but we didn't rap). We hyped up my strumming, and we cut the song. One full verse, pre-chorus and chorus. We did that cause we wanted to perform a full song and not get stopped like V7 did. 

And guess what?

We did not get stopped at all!

Oh my goodness. As we were singing, I think the look on teacher's faces meant: enjoyment? I don't know. But I felt adrenaline after the performance. Which was awesome. :]

Only flaw in our performance was, Joyanne was too soft. That idiot mike guy put hers too high. So she either chose to sing, or to play. So she sang. But she simply played the keyboards. I heard, but the show must go on right? :D

We were satisfied. 

Well, its like Friday now, you must be wondering if we have gotten through or not. You might not be wondering. Cause you may think I'm showing off. Okay lah. I am. A little bit. But hey. Its my blog. 

WE GOT THROUGH!!! 

*Dances mad dance in field of rainbow trees*

I'm really psyched! :D I can already imagine what our performance would be like. Of course, we have to practice. 

I'm still wondering what we could do with a guitar and a keyboard... My Humans got any ideas? I want our performance to be young, fun, energetic, loud and sound nice! 

We're considering options here. I won't tell you what it is... Keeping the element of surprise! :D 

Umm... And we have to think of what to wear. Hmm... Hippy? Rocker? I don't know. 

I'm so excited now I'm jumping all around my room. #LikeALunatic

Well, all I'm asking for you guys here, is to wish me Super Good Luck! Nah, just hope my beret doesn't fall off. And I hope we don't do anything stupid. Or get kicked off the competition entirely. Maybe even win the RM400? LOL. Not happening. Music will never win. 

Ah well. Girls Just Wanna Have Fun, right?

Currently working on:

The Future Us

Its a funny thing. I'll explain next time... When I finish it.... Which will NEVER happen. 

Okay. I think I'm done for today! 

Ciao first! 

Peace. Chocolate. Dreams. Music. 

Malam Bakat-ing Angel