July Has Come to an End

Hey. Yes. July is officially coming to an end in less than 2 hours.

I'm currently feeling melancholic and sentimental.

I love the month July. Besides being my birthday month, its also well,  SUNNY all day long.

I didn't update ya'll about what happened in AGM. I guess I have nothing to say.

As you probably guessed, I didn't get the Head Prefect post. BUT, I did get the Group Leader B as everyone expected. I can't say I'm happy about it. But I can't say I'm not relieved either. So.. Yeah. Neutral.

Umm. There's been lots of drama after AGM. Mainly because Yi Wen, our new Head Prefect (OHMYFREAKINGGOODNESSSHEGOTIT!!!!),  is a girl. And her two Assistants, are boys. And one of them who wants the post badly. Sparks are flying. And I don't like it at all.

But Yi Wen is a wise one. I'm sure she'll pull through :)

Some pictures from AGM (just random ones)

My Ketua, Ng Xelynn (left) and Beh (right)

They say Xelynn looks like me. :) Ahahaha. She doesn't, okay? And we are not sisters even though our surnames are the same.

I wanna use this chance to properly thank Xelynn. She is the best Ketua I could ask for. Calm, organized, disciplined, rarely flustered, responsible and respected. She has taught me lots of important things that I never thought of learning as her Penolong. She is respected, not feared. I'm in awe :)

Thank you, Xelynn, don't care what other people say. We know that we're right, then its okay.

Okayyy. More photos:

I look somewhat guilty. 

Geng Ding and Yi Wen 

Dai Fai! And Ai Wei! Head Prefect and Asst. Head Prefect!

LOL. Noob Farm :D

Keishok! The DUDE WITH THE HEIGHT. The other Asst. Head Prefect

The New Prefectorial Board 

Me and my new Assistant! :) I like him lots. 

Yeah. Well. I hope that Kumpulan B will be the best group amongst. And I am currently holding on to the Strictest Group Leader title. *Evil Laugh*

And I sincerely pray that the sparks will die out. I don't want our Board to fall apart over selfish intentions :/

Oh yes. And. This is for you.

I have been trying. Very hard. To speak. But somehow, the voice just dies inside of me at the last minute. And instead comes out silence as shyness take over. And I will start giggling like a stupid bimbo. I hate myself for doing this.

Well. Tomorrow is a better day.

Patches, please go back to Ashley :( She's all over looking for you and she's very scared. Please go back to your owner.

Thanks, Arvie. I love reading your comments :) No kidding. Thank you.

Peace out. (Y) See you guys in August.

End Of July and Avoiding War Angel

Important. Unimportant.

Tomorrow is AGM for Lembaga Pengawas (Annual General Meeting for Prefectorial Board). And remember last year? I was so hyped up for it. And in the end, I got what I wanted. An AJK post. As Penolong Ketua Kumpulan B (Asst. Leader of Group B). You can read about my naiveness HERE

Yes, last year, I was young and naive. I thought that I would certainly get a Penolong spot. And use this to prove myself to the Form 5s that I am capable of handling the whole board. And maybe even the whole school.  And I thought that surely this years Kem Jati Diri Pengawas I would show them what I've got.

But I was wrong. I was very wrong. I still am.

Look, I'm about to dip deep into my frustration and feelings. So if I trample on your toes, please hold back. I'm gonna apologize to Yi Wen, Geng Ding, Zheng Guo and Koo first. I know I'll hurt you guys somehow. Especially Yi Wen. I really like you, a lot. 

I always thought that I would be Ketua Pengawas (Head Prefect). Yes. I used to. Maybe I still do now. I mean, its not like that I don't deserve it. Yes, I sound cocky and selfish. But from my point of view, I think I do deserve it. And I have so many ideas. On how to improve our Lembaga.

But of course, I am not a calon (cantidate) for the Ketua Pengawas post. I was disappointed when I found out I wasn't one of the four. Because during the interview, I basically told my seniors that I wanted the post. Obviously, they did not trust me. Did not like me. Did not think I was capable of anything.

I know. Under their attentive expressions, they were furtively hiding their sneers and amused expressions.

I have been hiding my frustration for a few months. I dare not tell my parents. And not even my friends. I know what they would say.
Parents: 'Good. Now you can focus on your studies. If they don't think you're capable, resign from Prefects! Hand in your tie! So you can have more time to study.'
Friends: 'Nevermind lah, Noel. Its just a post. No big deal. At least you have Ketua Kumpulan!' 

And I would just laugh and smile.

I don't wanna resign. Prefects is my life. I never put anything before Prefects. I love the thrill of it. But of course, my results have shown that Prefects really has been affecting my studies. And I hate myself for making it happen.

Yes, I may still have Ketua Kumpulan. But its the only post that's really determined by voting. It may change in the blink of an eye. Do you know how terrified I am? I may lose what I have now by just one vote. No one can understand my fear.

Its always like that.

I just realized how worthless I am in the Lembaga.

IMPORTANT ENOUGH TO BE INVOLVED, BUT NOT IMPORTANT ENOUGH TO BE IN CHARGE

That is precisely what's been going through my mind these few days. If you notice, I might space out for a few moments throughout my day in school. I am probably blaming myself for being stupid, worthless or useless. 

If Yi Wen got the Ketua Pengawas post, I would laugh and congratulate her. She really deserves it. Even more than me. She has the willpower to get down and do all the work. And she is really, really nice. 

But what I don't understand is, why the TWO BOYS? Why them? Especially one of them. Cocky, arrogant and full of himself. His only power is the one that the current (useless) Head Prefect granted him. Which is unfair, because AGM isn't even here yet. 

Now I don't know what to think. I don't know if I should regret all those sweat and tears I shed for our Lembaga (which will never be mine). And all those wasted time. All those precious wasted time. And that energy. 

I feel stupid. 

Dear God, please set me free. I don't want to feel so trapped and frustrated anymore. 

Now I have to put on a smiley face and pray that none of my other Prefects read this post. 

And if you do read this, please don't mention it to my face tomorrow. I don't want pity or kindness. It only makes me sad. 

I guess I'm done. 

Frustration is an ugly thing. 

Power is an ugly thing. 

Trust is lost. 

Happiness is lost. 

I need music. 

Frustrated and Lost Angel

Knocking On Heaven's Door

I love this song. It just means so much. Even though I'm not clear on what it means exactly. But the message in the few verses were clear: STOP WAR

And of course, you might've noticed the song up here in my blog is the one I'm talking about. And the boy singing it is called Christian Palencia. He's so talented and I have a huge crush on him. I don't know about his heritage, but I'm guessing he's Orang Asli (native Malaysian) or something like that. I would like to interview him :)

I requested it for my birthday. He actually did a cover! I said:

it would be ozumer if you did Knocking On Heaven's Door with it :) I request it for my birthday tomorrow. It would make my sweet 16th complete :P My name is Noel Ng

And I nearly fainted in delight when I found this video on my birthday the next day: 

Ozum song. Woke up this morning while i was getting ready for work i saw a comment on one of my videos saying she would like a cover of this song to make her sweet 16 complete.

Well i wish you a great sweet 16 and a very happy birthday to you!

Thank you for the request Noel Ng!

Here it is: 

I don't know what's up with his hair :P He's not usually like this. Ahahah. 

Oh yes. I stalk him. :) 

Oh, he's a scout too. I guess that's why he accepted my friend request :P

Find him on:
YOUTUBE 
TWITTER 1
TWITTER 2
FACEBOOK

Okayyyy. Got to sleep. 

CIAO

Peace out! (Y)

Our MTV World Stage

14/07/2012
Heck. We didn't go to MTV World Stage Malaysia. But we did manage to go to Sunway Pyramid on the exact same day. Just by coincidence.

We actually went there to celebrate my birthday. Yeah. We celebrated my birthday with my friends two weeks after it. *Confetti*

We didn't actually do much. Just ate Sushi for 2 hours and Karaoke'd for so, so long :)

Hmm. Dhipa tasted Sushi for the first time of her life. And she didn't like it. Nothing much to say. I'll just bombard ya'll with pictures :)

These we took during the wait for Dhipa to arrive. In the end we started without her. :P

Me and My Boobie Jessica 

Ahaha! We look cute, no? ;)

Oookay. Random candid. 

Ashley was bending down so I would look taller. Oh woe. Somemore I look so damn chubby :P

Then finally we went in to Sakae Sushi!

She even looks pretty when she's bored!

Dhipa is trying out sushi. Obviously, she doesn't really like it. 

Polaroid!

RAAAAWR! <3

Then we went to Red Box. To sing. :D

Oh yes, Hippie :)

Ahahaha. Okay. This is awkward. 

Wooo. Look at Ashley :D

My pretty babes :D

We went home after that. But not before we spammed my polaroid :D

We asked a random person to take it for us. I know, its slightly lame. 

They say I look the same in each one. Pfft. Where got?

Jessica is my Boobie :) 

Ashley is my hottie :)

So sorry, Dhips and Phuah. Wanted to take your polaroid but since ya'll don't have Twitter... :P

I don't know. the more I look at this, the less human I become. 

I love my friends. Even though lots of them couldn't make it that day. Joyanne, when are your paranoid parents gonna let loose? :/

Okay. I'm done. I am still mysteriously present-less. But nevermind. Its okay. I have what I need.

Umm. I'm lazy to blog about stuff. Be patient with me. Parents are locking me down. 

Okay?

Okay. 

Peace out. (Y)

Hippie Princess Angel

Just Let Me Rant

I haven't been around lately. I know.

Its not really my fault. Actually, it is. I didn't study hard enough (though I did) and I got crap results. Crap as in really crappy. As in Cs and Ds. Considering I'm an A student (not bragging here), its really a freaking huge drop. And of course, my dear parents are NOT liking it at all. So basically I'm supposed to cut all my co-curriculum. Which means, NO scouts, NO prefect, NO guitar-bringing-to-school. Nothing fun at all. Okay fine. I deserve punishment.

Well, I guess I just wanted to blog about Life in General.

I don't know. But I'm seriously having doubts on my choice of higher education.

I honestly have no idea which course to take.

I am extremely interested in Psychology. But I was slightly dumbstruck when I found out that the colleges in Malaysia listed Psychology in Liberal Arts. Along with Journalism, Sociology and Mass Communications. Which doesn't really make sense. I know Psychology isn't Science. But it still is the study of the human mind. Isn't it? So why in Liberal Arts?? I just don't get it. But I still am extremely interested.

Of course, I would like to pursue journalism too. I just wanna be a journalist and travel the world. Use my words to bring change. And I feel like my writing skill is still shaky and immature. I wanna learn more.

And now, unfortunately, I have started to get really interested in Physics. I know right? Weird. A stereotypical girl is not supposed to like Physics. Its supposed to be a boy subject. But yeah. I like it. Its fascinating. I mean, the concept is fascinating. But of course, me being a total loser at Mathematics, I always get the calculations wrong. Which depletes my confidence a lot. But still, I am considering in studying Astrophysics. Surprised? Don't know what it is? Its... Well heck. I don't know what it is either. But it has astronomy. And I love astronomy. So.. Yeah.

Heck. I wanna study all of them. But of course, that's the thing about our world. Heart-wrenching choices have to be made. And I still haven't made mine. And SPM is coming soon. I mean, yeah, I'm still in Form 4, but I know I don't really have much time left to study and get a scholarship.

And I haven't made my choice. My mind is changing like the phases of the moon.

I still don't wanna be a dentist.

Oh crap. This is not really sentimental enough. But I'm still feeling like I'm at crossroads. And I'm feeling lost.

I don't know. Its just suffocating to make choices. I don't wanna give up anything. *sigh*

I guess I'm done here. I wanna blog about the 'busy week' last week. We'll see when I have time to do that, hmm?

Oh Lord, I am so short of time. :( When can I have time to do the things I love?

I pray everyday.

Peace out, Yaww. (Y)

At Crossroads Angel

My Sweet 16

*Checks calender* Only half a month late, that's not bad :) Hi, Humans! Long time no see. I know, its been a while. Lets just assume I have never been gone at all!

So, yes. I am officially 16. And at first, it was slightly sucky. But then, now, I'm feeling happy.

So, the thing about my birthday. If you stalk me (which I know you do), you probably know that I have already celebrated my birthday once with my crazy friends. You can read it here: F&N Pre-Birthday Celebration Thingy

So (I keep using this word), I honestly don't know how I'm supposed to present my birthday. Its just so MUCH. I guess I'll just use the Timeline method. :P Whatever that is.

This post has lots of my family stuff in it. So feast your eyes, because I don't really blog much about my family :)

It begins at Midnight.

Can you believe it? On my birthday eve, mum was out with my brother, drinking with a friend. But she made it back before midnight to celebrate my midnight birthday! Aww, so touched. We didn't do much, just sang The Birthday Song, cut the cake then ate it. But I still am thankful for them to spoil me like this.

My mum :)

My dad :)

Wish #1

Eating cake in the middle of the night. No wonder I'm chubby.

Then I replied Facebook wishes till 2am in the morning. Ahaha. I almost couldn't wake up for church.

The Lord Brightens My Morning

The sad thing about Catechism was that there was exam on my birthday. But I was crazy all through it. I kept shouting profanities at the teacher. Just kidding, I was shouting to the teachers for answers cause it WAS my birthday :) But the teachers just ignored me :/ Oh well.

Of course, we just had to take pictures in front of the toilet. :P Its our Sunday tradition.

I was the hippie of the day. Oh wait. I'm hippie everyday :)

Half my face :P

I like this one :)

Shantal always manages to choose the pictures where she looks pretty and I look chubby. x) Love you all!

Then I went home, and then I slept. Throughout the afternoon. I'm such a pig.

When I woke up, my whole family was already preparing for dinner. Isshh. And I groggily went and changed. Bwahahaha. Now for some PICTURES. You can't blame me if its a bit jumbled up and the date stamp on the pictures don't make sense.

Oh yes, I'm wearing a girly skirt. And I feel like a princess :) 

We went to the restaurant called La Vie En Rose (Life through rose-coloured glasses/Life In Pink). Its a French restaurant and we chose it because I wanted to be sophisticated and eat French cuisine for my 16th birthday. Plus, I've never tried it before. 

The place is beautiful. Its so modern and simple yet with a touch of romance. Plus, there are no people there. 


Of course, we had to take random pictures :) Mostly because the food came SUPER SLOW. 

A very rare photo of my Dad 

This is cool :)

And of course, Mum had to go check out the little shop selling French stuff. 

Oh, another load of random photos. I should stop posting them. They make people bored. 

The forgotten Kuala Lumpur. 

KL tower!

Another one. With the same pose. 

I love my Zara Neon pink clutch :) Mum loves her snakeskin clutch :)

Finally, the food came!

White wine for the birthday girl :)

Me and my Dad, cheers!

The waiter actually said: 'Compliments from the chef.'

Feeding me like a baby 

Ah, the classic Waiter-Helps-Family-To-Take-A-Crappy-Photo photo.

Ah, after the courses, we had a break before the dessert. Break means time. Time means more pictures! Random ones, of course. :P 

Photo-bombed by Mum. 

Ahahaha! You can see the pain and awkwardness in our eyes xD

Oh Gosh. The pervyness is overwhelming. Mum's Samsung Galaxy SIII!

The parents :D

The Kids. 

After quite a while, the DESSERTS came! I'm a sucker for desserts :)

PINK!!!

This image is haunting you, I know 

Wish #2 

GREEDINESSSSS! :)

Don't know what this is called, but it tastes like a little piece of heaven. CHOCOLATE

So after that, we paid (a long and thick bill), and we took more pictures. Randomness. 

I look blissed out, don't I? :)

Okay :) This concludes what happened on the 1st of July. 


I didn't get much presents this year. Don't really know why. 

I love this polaroid. 

Well, that ends my Sweet 16. Of course, it doesn't END there. I went out with the Girls. To Sunway Pyramid. And apparently Jessica Sendai hasn't uploaded the pictures yet. Oh well. That can wait. 


So many interesting things happened in school recently. I really wanna blog about them, but seeing as I have basically zero time, we'll just assume it didn't happen, okay? :P


I love my friends, although its more than half a month over my birthday, and they haven't given me my present yet. 


I love my family, who loves me even though I'm the emotional crazy girl. 


And creepily enough, I love my followers. Even though I'm such a lazy bum recently. 


I'll update as soon as I have time. 


Exams are coming next month. ASDFGHJKL. Better start studying now if I wanna go back to scouting. 


Okayyy. I'm done ranting. 


You can read my previous birthdays here:
15th Birthday
14th Birthday


No 13th birthday. I didn't take blogging seriously back then. 


I'll do a sentimental post soon. I promise. 


Thank you, everbody!


Peace out! (Y)


Sixteen Angel