Just Let Me Rant

I haven't been around lately. I know.

Its not really my fault. Actually, it is. I didn't study hard enough (though I did) and I got crap results. Crap as in really crappy. As in Cs and Ds. Considering I'm an A student (not bragging here), its really a freaking huge drop. And of course, my dear parents are NOT liking it at all. So basically I'm supposed to cut all my co-curriculum. Which means, NO scouts, NO prefect, NO guitar-bringing-to-school. Nothing fun at all. Okay fine. I deserve punishment.

Well, I guess I just wanted to blog about Life in General.

I don't know. But I'm seriously having doubts on my choice of higher education.

I honestly have no idea which course to take.

I am extremely interested in Psychology. But I was slightly dumbstruck when I found out that the colleges in Malaysia listed Psychology in Liberal Arts. Along with Journalism, Sociology and Mass Communications. Which doesn't really make sense. I know Psychology isn't Science. But it still is the study of the human mind. Isn't it? So why in Liberal Arts?? I just don't get it. But I still am extremely interested.

Of course, I would like to pursue journalism too. I just wanna be a journalist and travel the world. Use my words to bring change. And I feel like my writing skill is still shaky and immature. I wanna learn more.

And now, unfortunately, I have started to get really interested in Physics. I know right? Weird. A stereotypical girl is not supposed to like Physics. Its supposed to be a boy subject. But yeah. I like it. Its fascinating. I mean, the concept is fascinating. But of course, me being a total loser at Mathematics, I always get the calculations wrong. Which depletes my confidence a lot. But still, I am considering in studying Astrophysics. Surprised? Don't know what it is? Its... Well heck. I don't know what it is either. But it has astronomy. And I love astronomy. So.. Yeah.

Heck. I wanna study all of them. But of course, that's the thing about our world. Heart-wrenching choices have to be made. And I still haven't made mine. And SPM is coming soon. I mean, yeah, I'm still in Form 4, but I know I don't really have much time left to study and get a scholarship.

And I haven't made my choice. My mind is changing like the phases of the moon.

I still don't wanna be a dentist.

Oh crap. This is not really sentimental enough. But I'm still feeling like I'm at crossroads. And I'm feeling lost.

I don't know. Its just suffocating to make choices. I don't wanna give up anything. *sigh*

I guess I'm done here. I wanna blog about the 'busy week' last week. We'll see when I have time to do that, hmm?

Oh Lord, I am so short of time. :( When can I have time to do the things I love?

I pray everyday.

Peace out, Yaww. (Y)

At Crossroads Angel