Because I Like Going To School

Hey Humans. Sorry for the last two Emo posts yesterday. I didn't mean to drag your spirits down too. Sorry.

Okay. Noticed some changes in the background of my blog? I changed it to fireworks, cause I seriously feel the need, the want, and the crave to fly up to the sky and burst into colorful sparks, giving people hope and relighting their dreams.

Yeah. I'm thinking too much. My blog just seems weird. I feel like changing the whole damn thing, starting from a blank white paper. But yeah... It's impossible to do so (just an excuse for being lazy). So, you'll just have to bear the weirdness of my blog till I have another mood change and decide to change it.

Okay, I've closed the Facebook tab on my browser cause Facebook is honestly too boring. Too many cam-whores asking people to like their stuff... Ugh. *rolls eyes* And I'm focusing on Twitter instead cause not much of my friends use it and I can tweet any crap I want.

The thing I've noticed both Social Networks, everyone is stressing out about going back to school.

P/S: Our new school year doesn't start in September like most countries. We start a new school year after New Year. So its a little weird, but its how we live.

And I'm like:

Face it people, if you don't go to school, your parents are going to jail.

I think I'm one of those weird people who actually loves school. I mean, I'm not in love with my school, its downright crappy. But the idea of going to school can make me smile.

I can prove it.

Some of you may know, I have a brother. And my brother is currently in Form 6 (that's something like Pre-U but I don't wanna go into details). Which means, he still has to wear a uniform and go to school. He's now in Upper-6th which means he's a badass at school. :P #wegotabadassoverhere!

And since young, we have had a clash of Morning Sessions and Afternoon Sessions (not gonna go in detail, but Standard 123 [Primary School] and Remove and Form12 [Secondary School] usually Afternoon Session whereas Standard 456 and Form 3456 is usually Morning Session) My brother and I are 3 years apart, and I'm in Form 4 now and just do the stupid math.

So, last year and this year and a few years back, we were in Morning Session together (different schools).. It was... Interesting. :D When I'm up, I usually get my energy once I wash my face. But my brother? He's a different story altogether. He wakes up. Brushes. Bathes. And stares at his food. He doesn't eat cause he can't. And I? I can gobble up like... A freakin' huge breakfast every morning. Maybe that's why he's so freakin' thin??? OMG. And I think I have the energy to sing in the morning. Sing and hum and do crazy stuff early in the morning (5am)!

Anyways, he hates school, I love school. And tommorow he's taking me to school. Hope we wake up in time. (Not kidding)

And? I'm seriously looking forward to going back to school. I'm Form 4 now, more challenges for me to face. Its the year I try to nab my chance in getting the Ketua Pengawas (Head Prefect) spot on the Prefectorial Board. :] #tryingmyhardest!!1 Its the year when most of the school responsibilities get pushed onto us because we're turning 16 this year. Yay. Growing up.

Okay... This post is boring without any photos. So I'll make you laugh at/with me instead.

Nerdy fact about me:

• I finished packing my bags before 2012 even started.
• I have actually planned a scheme into nabbing the Ketua Pengawas spot.
• I have fantasies of camps and stuff that will never happen.
• I have fantasies of me on stage, with the whole school singing along with me... But with the effects of a concert. (Weird, right?)
• I try to go to school even if I'm sick. 
• I can't live without breaking a rule no matter where I am.
• I have never been terrified of a teacher, unless its Mdm. Heng, my primary school teacher. 
• I... Shall never get a boyfriend after telling the whole world those things above. 

Yeah. I'm such a freaking nerd. I'll continue being a freaking nerd cause I like it too much.

Whoa. I found some photos with me at school. Its Nerdy. I'm Nerdy.

Because I Like Going To School.

:]

Peace

Love.

Joy.

Chocolate.

Nerdy Angel

This helped, a lot. :]

The Boy Problem

Hey, humans. Its a really really beautiful day outside.

Sun is shining, 

You can practically smell the sunshine!

This is the kind of day that people write in songs. Well... That ain't happening today, surely. I honestly should be outdoors... Doing... Exercise? 

Instead, I'm at home. Sitting in front of the computer. And the TV. On the couch. 9Gagging. 

God, I'm such a failure. 

Okaaaay. I guess you read the post title... And I shall talk. 

For those who stalk me on Twitter, you may already have realized that I have received a wall post from 'The Boy', after watching him being online for what... 3 to 4 hours? I finally got a wall post from 'The Boy'! It was pretty lame, 

I was like: 'Oh my *swear word* *swear word* *swear word* *swear word* *swear word*-ing *swear word* What the *swear word*?!' (Joyanne can vouch for that)

And... I didn't have time to reply him. I went swimming. Well, I was freaking out too. I couldn't even focus while I was swimming. I was stressing out all through the swim. I left it... Till 1am... Right before I was about to sleep. Well, I couldn't sleep. I was thinking too much about the freaking wall post. So I sneaked downstairs to reply your post. 

You posted this on my wall:

Happy New Year

and sorry didn't even say hi.

I typed that exactly the way you typed it. 

And I replied with:

Hi, Happy New Year.

Yeah, I feel like a mean b*tch. I felt like I had had the last laugh. 

But you know the funny thing? I still couldn't sleep even after that. I was twisting and turning in my bed. Thinking if I was too harsh. If I was too kind. If I didn't do enough. If I did too much. 

That was utter hell for me. 

I was so, so... Happy. I was... So... Delighted. My heart was thudding with the adrenaline that was there when I first fell for you so many years ago. The hormones, they wouldn't stop conquering my body. That you had actually remembered my existence!

But

Now it's all gone. 

Joyanne said you posted something on your GirlFriend's wall. And it was all whiny and capital letters and with a lot of TTs <-- Tears. 

Naturally, I was really, really curious. So, my babe gave me her password and I logged into her Facebook account. I was actually quite relieved that it had not much difference when I viewed it. BUT. I saw his post on his GirlFriend's wall. 

And I made the biggest mistake of my life. I clicked The Girl's profile. 

She had Timeline. She uses okay English. She plays Tetris Battle. And apparently, she's dating the hottest guy. (I apologize, Girl, if I don't quote you properly because I can't seem to force myself to type out your name and click your profile link.) 

Fine. I'll swallow that. I'll swallow the fact that you're his GirlFriend. I'll swallow the fact that you're hopelessly in love. I'll swallow that he loves you back. I'll swallow that you're shy enough to not put your own face as your profile picture. 

Whatever, Noel. Swallow it. Swallow the poison. Swallow the fire. Swallow the jagged pieces of glass. 

And the only thing which is really, really, really pissing me off, is the fact that I may bump into The Girl in Avril Lavigne's Black Star Tour. 

And, what the bloody *swear word*?! She bought the most expensive tickets! 

Okay. I can't type properly anymore. The emotions are eating me up. Rage? Fury? Jealousy? Unfairness? 

What I wanna say to you, Girl: 

'I wont try anymore. I wont try to love him anymore. You can have him. All of him. As if I even had any of him. I don't think I even wanna be his friend anymore.'

Now, I shall go to my room, and tell myself that I don't love you anymore. The speck of hope that was there was smothered, just like every other time. That... I'm unworthy of you. That I'm crap. That I wont cry for you when tears are streaming down my face.

I shall write a song. That will never take shape. 

I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost.I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost.I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost.I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost.I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. I lost. 

Lies. All of them. Lies. 

Why do you have to rip me apart, wing by wing, everytime?

Broken-Winged Angel

2012 New Year's Resolutions

We ran through the streets,

Screaming like utter looners,

We ran and ran, 

An energy in our souls that was unstoppable...

We are young. 

We are crazy. 

WE ARE THE MOST AWESOME OF THEM ALL! 

I'm not kidding, I spent my New Year like that. 

This is the first post in 2012 :] 

I am gonna share my resolutions with you guys. Yes, I'm slightly drunk now, but I'll try my best, yeah? ;D

1. Shake off my laziness... Well, at least towards my school stuff... I'll work hard this year! I'm Form 4 now, its my year to prove to everyone, that ADD MATHS will not bring me down! ;]
2. Try to nab the Ketua Pengawas (Head Prefect) spot! Show to everyone that I can lead! 
3. Try to be at least a little useful in the scouts? Pretty please, Noel?
4. Try to make a decent cover with my babe, Joyanne. It has to be better than... *ehem, ehem* ;D
5. Stay friends with my friends. Try not to fight again, with my beautiful friends... :] 
6. Enjoy the hell out of this year!
7. Rock out at Avril Lavigne's Black Star Tour! With Phuah Shelvin! :]
8. Love my family... Well, at least try? :P
9. Write stories, decent ones, that will go into the school magazines, and win me some competitions... Well, mostly write with my heart and soul. <3
10. Win school competitions! Win ALL those trophies! *evil laugh!*
11. Continue writing songs. Songs that I think are good enough to share on YouTube with the world!
12. Get myself a boyfriend? Hahaha! I'm gonna be 16 in precisely half a year... *wink, wink* Nah, I shouldn't. No guy will ever be awesome enough for me... (THAT WAS AN AWFUL JOKE!!! Did I mention I was drunk?!)
13. Forget that loser. Well, I just want a sincere apology, since its new year. I wanna forget but you don't seem to be making this easy. 
14. Smile, lots. Smile to those who need my smile. Smile to those who deserve it. 
15. Conquer the world with music. <3

Well, that's about it! 

I hope that I will at least make at least half of it true? At least?  :]

May God bless everyone in this world. 

May my heart be open. 

May my Guardian Angel continue Guarding me. 

And may I continue Guarding everyone else in my life. 

I love this world. Even if it's dark and disgusting.

BABY I'M A FIREWORK!

Love. 

Peace. 

Joy. 

Faith. 

Credits to the beautiful Teressa Arrais 

2012 Angel

Merry Christmas

I had a wonderful Christmas with my family! I'm not gonna say much, just gonna let the pictures do all the talking, kay?

Oh, and I'm starting with Christmas Eve cause the mass was during Christmas Eve.

This was the Catholic Church in my Dad's Hometown, Changloon. Its really... Traditional?

 I've been going there since I existed. I really love that church! <3

Mass is starting.

Thats my Bro there, he read the Sermon. :] good for him. *pats his back*

After mass, there was fellowship. They always have fellowship. :D I just love the cake xD

Mum's being an utter busybody :D

Note: I did not wear my beret during Mass. And I felt guilty for wearing it inside the church afterwards. But it made my outfit complete :P Sorry. 

It's our little tradition to take pictures here. :D I would show you the pictures if I had patience and time to find them, but I don't. So in your face!

Me and Olivia, praying to Mother Mary. 

We mostly spent the night talking bout our futures. *Talking 'bout our future, like we had a clue...*


More cam-whoring in the Church. 

I like this one. :]

Epic FAIL jumpshot. :P

Profile Pic? :D

My Gong Gong (Grandpa) and Jia Sing :D

Group Photo!

Well, that was the end of the Church episode. And like always, we got back to Gong Gong's house and countdown to Christmas!

Facebooking withe the P1

10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Look at the Date!!!

Angpau from Gong Gong!

Snatching presents from little girls... I'm a Hero! xD

This is such a weird picture... But I like it, cause Aron looks hot. ;D

Bro and Luke

My two cousins, Wen Yi and Wen Kai. 

Water Bottle. :D

That, was Christmas Eve and Christmas Morning.

We ate ate ate ate ate. :D No pics. Sorry.

And we spent the night drinking and drinking and playing card games.

See? He's red from all the drinking. xD

What's so funny? I forgot. 

Basically, my Christmas was filled with so much joy and cheer. I liked the time I spent in my Hometown. 

I prayed for everyone I know during mass. I hope my blessings reach you humans out there. :]

Smiles from an Angel

Christmas Angel